A Fairy was born this morning on my desk. She is Orange, Pink and Purple (of course!) and she holds high a banner that states "Whimsey." I didn't even plan it that way, it's just how my favorite colors came together naturally once I sat down to create. I have been immersing myself in Intention for the past 3 weeks or so, as I face almost certain unemployment in just under 3 weeks.
My teaching career in public school will be a "flash in the pan" of my life. And that's ok, because I think that the public school system will never compensate or appreciate me the way I deserve. I have come to believe that teachers in general have collective low self-esteem. We allow ourselves to be used, mentally tortured, financially abused. We try to do our best- and the excuse for why we take the abuse is "It's for the good of the children." How come I have to do what's best for YOUR kids, when you don't even care enough to make sure I have a budget to buy supplies with? Why should I spend MY money on YOUR children's education? These are only a couple of the many questions I have about the public education system right now. I think it's broken from several points of view, and since I don't support having negativity in my life (saps the energy, ya know) I don't think I will mind if I lose my job. Of course, if a miracle occurs and I don't lose my job, I will go back and volunteer for the abuse all over again. I do love those kids, and they love me back. My friend Marsha says we don't have low self-esteem- she calls it a "Sense of the Higher Good." Well, they do say Kharma is a bitch- and she's coming for any of you parents who don't help your school systems find real solutions.
Anyway, I have been thinking that unemployment really just means "time to work for no one but me." So I've been planning and scheming. Add a dash of Whimsey to the mix, and maybe I'll even have fun figuring this all out.
My teaching career in public school will be a "flash in the pan" of my life. And that's ok, because I think that the public school system will never compensate or appreciate me the way I deserve. I have come to believe that teachers in general have collective low self-esteem. We allow ourselves to be used, mentally tortured, financially abused. We try to do our best- and the excuse for why we take the abuse is "It's for the good of the children." How come I have to do what's best for YOUR kids, when you don't even care enough to make sure I have a budget to buy supplies with? Why should I spend MY money on YOUR children's education? These are only a couple of the many questions I have about the public education system right now. I think it's broken from several points of view, and since I don't support having negativity in my life (saps the energy, ya know) I don't think I will mind if I lose my job. Of course, if a miracle occurs and I don't lose my job, I will go back and volunteer for the abuse all over again. I do love those kids, and they love me back. My friend Marsha says we don't have low self-esteem- she calls it a "Sense of the Higher Good." Well, they do say Kharma is a bitch- and she's coming for any of you parents who don't help your school systems find real solutions.
Anyway, I have been thinking that unemployment really just means "time to work for no one but me." So I've been planning and scheming. Add a dash of Whimsey to the mix, and maybe I'll even have fun figuring this all out.
