Saturday, July 9, 2011

Texture unexpected.

I've been thinking about what is important to me, what I am passionate about. It's important to stop and think when you are in a stressful situation as I am now. Texture. I am passionate about visual and audio texture. The sound of waves, and the look of them. Likewise with leaves on trees, a scarce commodity in south Florida. Sand, snow, wind, and coral-the bones of the sea. In visiting Texas last weekend, the textures there were dry, flaky, hot...gritty. Green and fertile in the shade. Texture gives meaning to everything. I'd you slow down you will notice the texture of things. Thoughts so thick you could chew them, tastes so wonderful you could roll around in them... I've always said that if it were acceptable, I would bathe in candied sweet potatoes. For the texture, warmth, smell, and taste. Mmmmmmm.
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Thursday, July 7, 2011

It's Preposterous!

Ha, I just like that word. And other words, such as flummoxed, bamboozled, and cummerbund.  But, back to my point.

Still no word from Broward County about whether I will get my old job back. Usually they wait until the last dying moment, so no surprise there. Money suddenly "appears," seemingly out of nowhere, and they call the laid-off teachers and make offers. Of course, they fail to apologize for the loss of sleep, stress, strained marriages, and other physical and psychological problems caused by the whole mess. As for my marriage, of course it's been strained. Right now, my husband has gone to another state to find work. We couldn't both sit here waiting for the hand of god, or someone, to help us out. There is no work in South Florida, people. Don't come here. Yes it's beautiful, yes, there is a great beach and palm trees...but unless you like climbing those trees to hack down your own coconuts in the face of starvation, it's not a great place to come looking for a life right now.

Do I sound bitter? I really, truly thought that once I got my job teaching art at a highschool, my LONG career quest  would be over and I would stay out the rest of my working days. It's not even that my quest for a career was long, it's that my quest for a JOB was very very long. I always wanted this career, but it took 15 years to get the job.

Well, happy to say that my feelers are out and a certain Prep-school will be interviewing me next week to join their Fine Art department in the Digital Photography and Media capacity. If I go there, Broward will have lost one of it's finest. But as I stated before, all you need to keep your job in Broward County is a hire date and a pulse, you don't need any actual skills in the area you will be teaching. That's thanks to our "wonderful" union.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Working with positive Affirmations.

I got an app that features list of rotating affirmations -475 of them! Did you know you could say that many positive things to yourself? Most people spend all day cutting themselves apart, saying "I should've, could have, wish I had..." etc. I am experimenting with only saying positive things to myself. So far its been great. My favorite one is "I'm ok." Over and over, since I am prone to irrational anxiety. It helps.
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