It's hard to be creative every day. I think sometimes it's just plain hard to be creative. I am always thinking, and always ahead of the game- I think of wild things that sometimes my friends and acquaintances just don't "get." It's a blessing and a curse. And lately, I'm just tired. Tired of my situation, my job, and always being turned on- striving to do my best. Why can't I just slack off? Why can't I be "normal?" Why do I have to think of better ways to teach my Photoshop classes (full of 45-50 students, ridiculous) and AP students who don't really care about Art History? Because, I'm a teacher, and I care. And because I am basically a creative person, I can't help but create new and better ways of doing everything I do. So the answer is, keep on truckin'. Even when you are tired. Otherwise, you won't like yourself.
Amen to that! I'm right there with ya. When I get that pat on the back or a little recognition, or, like you say, someone really "gets" me....it sustains me. Feeds my soul. But when I hit a dry patch, trying really hard and getting nowhere, make mistakes, say the wrong thing or am misinterpreted; ow. Just plain ow. Deflated and tired. I wait for middle ground again and try to find my center. It's all you can do.
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